Something that really bothers me...

I just realized there is something that really bothers me. I hadn't thought of it in this aspect until just now.

I have a friend from junior/senior high school. We don't communicate a whole lot, but she's still a presence in my life. Lately her lifestyle (what little I know of it) and the choices she has made bug me.

See, when we were kids, she was a very devout baptist and believed strongly in God, Jesus Christ, etc. Well, lately she has basically denounced God and become a wiccan. What she told me is that she can not believe in a God that would allow his children to suffer the way that she has suffered. So she has turned to witchcraft, herbs, paganistic rituals, medicine wheels, etc.

I'm sorry, but from what I know of her life she has not suffered any more than most and not as much as others. I know that she has had a couple of miscarriages, and has tried to adopt several children throughout the years that haven't worked out, but she does have one son. Never having been pregnant, let alone had a miscarriage, I can only imagine the pain she had to endure losing those children. However, in my opinion, she should be extremely grateful for the son she does have. She won't go to baby showers anymore because "it's too painful." She just can't be happy for the mother-to-be. HOW SELFISH!!!!!!

I feel cheated that I never found someone to marry and that I never had the opportunity to have even one child! But I'm not turning to this (in my opinion) ridiculous "religion."

One of the reasons I think the adoptions didn't work out is because her marriage isn't good. She's told me before that she wants to leave her husband, but doesn't know how she would make it if she did. I believe that she mentioned to me that he might be suicidal if she did just to spite her. I believe that there was some divine intervention when the adoptions did not go through. Why would God allow a child to come into a home with an unstable relationship like that?

I will give her credit though... although she was not a good student when we were in school, she has home schooled her son and he seems to be doing very well.

I truly believe that everyone is entitled to choose the life they want to lead, however, I don't have to approve of it or accept it. I believe this is why I am so reluctant to communicate with this person and do not like to socialize with her.

Stop It!!!

Why does life have to be so painful? Why can't the good people get the good things in life that they truly deserve?

One friend provided love, food, lodging and things in life that his "family" needed and wanted. What did he get in return? Kicked out of his own home with no discussion, support or contact from said family. The ex got half of everything and racked up $140K in debt.

Another person has a baby, gets married, gives up her good job, sells her nice home, moves hundreds of miles away from everything she knows so that her husband doesn't have to give up HIS life. When she decides after 3 years that she's miserably unhappy and wants to go back home he won't budge. So nows she's living at home with her parents and her child and is still miserable because she feels she's failed at everything in life.

One man busts his butt for 27 years with the same company, gets laid off and gets nothing for the many years of loyal service and hard work. Now he's struggling to make a go of his own business and constantly gets screwed over.

Another woman lives a good respectable life for 40+ years, doing everything shes expected to do and still can't get the few things that she truly wants... someone to love her, a child, A FAMILY!!!

Life just really sucks and the good people get screwed.

Why another blog?

I have another blog where I talk about my family friends and the fun stuff in my life. However there are times when I just need/want to vent and don't want to worry about who might read it. So I've started this blog which will not be specifically introduced. I got this idea from a fellow blogger ... thank you "you-know-who"!